Brown Skin

Black skin is a rainbow of burnt shades
Red on sunset. Gold on summer
Orange when the leaves fall
Yellow in the cold.
Delicate.

I was born with moles all over my face
I feel them on my lips when I kiss
They make love on my cheeks
Growing with age
Few people see it.

Rubbing it with a thick cream
like kneading bread paste.
Softens it with black sugar
Until it gets smooth. Velvet.
So sweet you wanna lick it.

Polished with coconut oil.
Gleaming with shea better.
Jojoba balm for the lips
Spraying of floral water.

After giving it so much love
It is the sweetest dessert to eat
But after a sunbath
I’m as tasty as your favorite fruit.

Quivering out of the shower
Goosebumps become silk in my linen sheets
If you touch me the way that I want
You will feel my island in the palm of your hand.

Brow skin.
By Virginie Lentulus.

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Doubting

This is about doubting.
When everything inside the mind-body is broken open.
Waking up more sad than happy
with more questions than solutions.

Being frustrated for hours, days, weeks, months.
Feeling stuck.
Where does a spell begin and end ?
Big sign. This is the trigger.

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Step 1

Pointing a system who doesn’t work, who makes no sense anymore.
It’s a specific timeframe.
It might be a job, a love relationship, sexuality, childhood, self love, any kind of traumas.
Unbalanced hurts.

Doubting come in a rush, sounding like a vampire.
A constant dishwasher in the stomach, slow, painful and quiet
What we have learnt is doubting is a bad thing
A self agony.

Doubting brings a new power inside us.
It survived by being difficult, inconsistent, self-centered, demanding, resistant and persistent
but it arise a need.
Something else beautiful is cooking.

Step 2

Identifying and assuming the frustrations.
So strong and scary as it is.
The inner protective shell in a body wants to go out.
The true identify is booming like a volcano.

The need to find something new.
more appropriate and unexplored are born.
Am I more interested in my future or my past ?
Everything is possible again.

Step 3

Breaking the routine become an evidence.
And it’s fun ! Am I ready for this ? Yes !
Because I was tired of conditioning.
Clean up the brain is so powerful.

Because we all want to be closer to ourselves.
Goal of life isn’t it ?
Across the time and space of silencing, of fear, of separation, of loss
how great is to be real and start over ?

We could stay in the bullshit,
survived by hiding, pretending in social media
But when you stuck on the ground floor
how excited is to create a new way to the moon ?

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Doubting creates a new blank page to meditate.
What do I really want for myself ?
Be out of my comfort zone.
Think differently. Push back. Cry out.

So hard but so worth it !
My point is doubting is not a bad thing.
It’s only a way of new beginnings.
I loved it.

Written by me.

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